reality check just got put into place.
death is creepy, cold, and very familiar right now. 18 year olds shouldnt be allowed to die, it should be some unwritten rule. its not fair, they have way more life to live, more people to meet, places to see, fun to be had.
i feel sick when i wake up, when i eat, when i do anything. i dont know what is wrong with me. couldnt be a baby, you have to have sex to have that ha. maybe its my nerves, and stress, i dont know.
i love all of my friends, i hope they know that, i would do anythign in my power for them. Same with me family, they mean to world to me.
for now on im living for me. for my friends, and for my family, no one else. im going to do what makes me happy, what is good for me, selfish? all well im tired of being selfless.
