is it possible to feel everything, and nothing at the same time. I think it is, i think i am. everytihng is falling down around me. the weight is to heavy for me to carry alone, and yet that is exactly how i feel, alone. by myself, no one here with me. i dont necessarly mind that either. i dont mind sleeping my life away right now. i dont mind waking up alone, staying up all hours of the night thinking about everything possible, then falling asleep alone. im kind of getting used to it. hanging out with people isnt fun to me anymore. i need a new enviroment, i need a new everything. sometimes i feel like i have stopped dead in my tracks and i just watch the world move quickyl around me. everything falling into place like it is suppost to, and me falling out of step with it all. i fight everyday to make myself get out of bed, to go outside, to shower, to do the simplest things that are easy for everyone else to do. i dont know what is wrong with me, i dont know if i want to know.
